Friday, November 2, 2007

TUESDAY, AUGUST 07, 2007 09:20 AM, CDT

We have returned from our whirlwind travel odyssey. It was the best of was the worst of times.

The Four Winds grand opening was great fun. I am very proud of Dick's accomplishments and the hard work by the entire Lakes Entertainment group. The casino is beautiful and very welcoming. I am so glad I was able to experience the opening and meet many of the great people that I know have been pulling for me.

Friday night found me with friends and family. What a wonderful evening of laughter. There is nothing like being surrounded with friends that have known you since you were seven to hurt your gut from laughter. You are all so special to me.

My 30th class reunion found me very mixed, emotionally. I had been looking forward to seeing classmates for years. It is always fun to see how people have changed...but really haven't. Believe it or not, I was always rather quiet and reserved in school. There are not many people that remember me. That's's fun to observe.

It was very difficult bidding my adieus, as odds of my attending my 40th reunion, well...I won't say. As I was leaving, I wanted to scream out to my classmates my life situation. It was painful having to hold in my tears. Actually, I learned on this trip that tears physically hurt due to I don't cry.

My life has changed significantly these past months. I am no longer able to dance until dawn, partake in alcoholic numbness or enjoy the art of gastronomy. With that, there are special moments that I would not have recognized prior to all this that I now cherish.

My mood is low and probably will be for the next few days. Tomorrow brings the next round of chemo....which takes a bit more of me with every infusion.

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