I received a lovely note from my dear friend Ann yesterday. She was responding to my most recent post and had her own sweet words of wisdom to share with me.
Her note touched me so much that I asked if I could share it with all of you. We all experience life challenges. I hope you find Ann's words as beautiful and encouraging as I found them.
"I once wrote a long, drawn out explanation of the darkness and the light...if for nothing other than to create some kind of "reason" for the ups and downs that were causing me distress...and it went something like this:
In beginning drawing class one of the first things they teach you is that shadow is just as important as light. A composition is stronger visually and is far more appealing with the substance shadow lends. That being said, the co-existence of light along side the darkness is equally vital to creating a successful work of art...it's all about balance. Staying somewhere in between is most likely comfortable for most of us...but you're a wonderful, unique masterpiece Kathy, and you have these challenges in front of you because you have the wisdom to understand and the strength to endure.
The hard times must be remembered long enough to appreciate the glorious highs that shine on our shoulders. And when the weight of the world is resting in that very place...you'll feel the warmth of happier times to get you through..."
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When initially diagnosed with Stage IIb anal cancer, I was one month shy of my 47th birthday. Unknowingly, I had been fighting tumor growth for a minimum of seven years. Prior to my diagnosis, I had been to the emergency room several times with lower abdominal pain, only to be sent home without answers. I had also expressed concern to my gynecologist. The answer was a prescription for Irritable Bowel Syndrome. No tests...just a prescription to make it go away. Needless to say, the pain continued to get worse, as I was erroneously diagnosed.
Stage IIb is a very treatable cancer. July 2006 treatment began with initial 120 hour infusion of 5-FU chemotherapy regimen. At the same time, I underwent five weeks of pelvic radiation therapy, with a second infusion of 5-FU at the end of radiation to complete treatment.
Follow up testing and biopsy in November 2006 found no indication of cancer. I was officially in remission and life celebrations began.
Fast forward to May 2007. My colorectal surgeon recommended a PET scan during a follow up appointment. PET revealed tumor growth in right lung. Within days of new diagnosis, lung surgery revealed that the same squamous cell anal cancer had metastasized and required the lower lobe of my right lung to be removed. Unfortunately, there are also tumors in the lining of my lung, which is inoperable.
Upon healing from thoracic surgery, Folfox6 chemotherapy regimen began. At the same time, I traveled to Memorial Sloan Kettering in New York for a second opinion. The doctor at MSK agreed with the treatment prescribed. Unfortunately, the doctor also advised that I was incurable and gave me a prognosis of approximately 5 years, due to the tumors in the lining of my lung.
August 2007 chest x-ray revealed tumor growth. My cancer was resistant to Folfox6 regimen. Time for 3rd and 4th opinions. Traveled to Cancer Treatment Center of America in Illinois and Mayo Clinic in Rochester, MN. Made the decision to be treated with Dr. Axel Grothey at Mayo Clinic. The suggested regimen is Taxol/Carboplatin.
February 2008 regimen was changed to Irinotecan/Erbitux. Due to a rare reaction to the infusion, this specific regimen is no longer available for my treatment. This was my final option for chemotherapy treatments.
April 2008, after being considered for thoracic surgery, was advised once again my condition is inoperable.
June 2008, accepted into Cancer Treatment Centers of America first ever FDA approved Phase I trial for Vitamin C Infusion Therapy. Therapy showed necrosis of largest tumor.
August 2008, receiving TomoTherapy treatment at Cancer Treatment Centers of America. This therapy is directed to my right lung to alleviate pain in my ribs. The pain is due to the cancer spreading to a portion of bone adjacent to one of my tumors.
October 2008, follow up CT scan revealed either complete obliteration or significant decrease in size of tumors.
New tumor found in left lung. Currently undergoing five additional weeks of TomoTherapy.
February 2009. follow up CT revealed that TomoTherapy treatment worked! Currently in remission. No further treatment or scans necessary for six months!!!
I chose to share my story through this blog, as I have a great desire to educate and get the word out that colorectal cancer is not an old man's disease. Colorectal cancer is afflicting younger people and early screening is crucial.'
Stage IIb is a very treatable cancer. July 2006 treatment began with initial 120 hour infusion of 5-FU chemotherapy regimen. At the same time, I underwent five weeks of pelvic radiation therapy, with a second infusion of 5-FU at the end of radiation to complete treatment.
Follow up testing and biopsy in November 2006 found no indication of cancer. I was officially in remission and life celebrations began.
Fast forward to May 2007. My colorectal surgeon recommended a PET scan during a follow up appointment. PET revealed tumor growth in right lung. Within days of new diagnosis, lung surgery revealed that the same squamous cell anal cancer had metastasized and required the lower lobe of my right lung to be removed. Unfortunately, there are also tumors in the lining of my lung, which is inoperable.
Upon healing from thoracic surgery, Folfox6 chemotherapy regimen began. At the same time, I traveled to Memorial Sloan Kettering in New York for a second opinion. The doctor at MSK agreed with the treatment prescribed. Unfortunately, the doctor also advised that I was incurable and gave me a prognosis of approximately 5 years, due to the tumors in the lining of my lung.
August 2007 chest x-ray revealed tumor growth. My cancer was resistant to Folfox6 regimen. Time for 3rd and 4th opinions. Traveled to Cancer Treatment Center of America in Illinois and Mayo Clinic in Rochester, MN. Made the decision to be treated with Dr. Axel Grothey at Mayo Clinic. The suggested regimen is Taxol/Carboplatin.
February 2008 regimen was changed to Irinotecan/Erbitux. Due to a rare reaction to the infusion, this specific regimen is no longer available for my treatment. This was my final option for chemotherapy treatments.
April 2008, after being considered for thoracic surgery, was advised once again my condition is inoperable.
June 2008, accepted into Cancer Treatment Centers of America first ever FDA approved Phase I trial for Vitamin C Infusion Therapy. Therapy showed necrosis of largest tumor.
August 2008, receiving TomoTherapy treatment at Cancer Treatment Centers of America. This therapy is directed to my right lung to alleviate pain in my ribs. The pain is due to the cancer spreading to a portion of bone adjacent to one of my tumors.
October 2008, follow up CT scan revealed either complete obliteration or significant decrease in size of tumors.
New tumor found in left lung. Currently undergoing five additional weeks of TomoTherapy.
February 2009. follow up CT revealed that TomoTherapy treatment worked! Currently in remission. No further treatment or scans necessary for six months!!!
I chose to share my story through this blog, as I have a great desire to educate and get the word out that colorectal cancer is not an old man's disease. Colorectal cancer is afflicting younger people and early screening is crucial.'
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2 comments:
Hi Kathy:
Thank you for your posts. I have also been treated for Squamos Cell Anal cancer and was diagnosed with Stage IIIB. I was treated at MD Anderson March-May with very good results. I am now having some symptoms of potential reoccurence so am having more tests December 10th. I would love to connect with you directly as there are few of us out there. I have one long term friend who has survived it for 11 years who I worked with when she was treated back then and another one for 5 years (she is the mother of a close friend).
I am new to blogging and also have a Caringbridge site.
Look forward to hearing from you!
Beth
Beth, Yahoo has an anal_cancer group that has over 80 active members. Most of them are women in their 40-50's who have been treated for various stages of anal cancer.
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